As Christmas draws near, I have received a lot of questions from family and friends lately about when we will get our Maggie. We are certainly inching closer, but still so far away. I pray for a miracle speed up everyday and wish on every star that next year at this time we will be holding Maggie or a picture of her and getting ready to travel. Some days I feel very optimistic and other days, not so positive. In my heart I know that there is a reason for everything and that when I do hold Maggie, I will know just why we had to wait so long. She will be the reason. God has chosen this little angel for us already..........she is just not here yet. I visit a China adoption forum everyday and another waiting mother shared an excerpt of a letter that her mother had written her. I thought it was beautiful and wanted to share it:
My mom wrote me a letter many months ago, after I had cried to her tears of frustration about the wait. The letter was so important to me, I’ve kept it - and maybe it will provide some encouragement here to someone. Some excerpt of what she wrote:“I’m thinking of you tonight, wishing I could run over and make your heart lighter. It does seem forever till you hold your daughter - but the certainty is that you *will* hold her. You will know her all your life on - she will always be your daughter. There is another woman across the world who will not know this child. This child will never know her as mother….“That, too is a certainty. When you feel so discouraged, try to pray for that mother’s grief and healing. Her sacrifice is your blessing and your daughter’s. What I am trying to say is *not* to feel guilty about this Chinese mother, or feel guilty about your discouragement. That is what it is. But, to find a way out of it. The wait is prolonged, but it will not be forever. The gift of your daughter will be forever….”
What Mom tried to gently remind me is that ultimately, time is on our side — we will be forever families.